A TRIP TO THE AIRPORT..

Tuesday,  July 9, 2013

Today my daughter left for Seattle, WA for two weeks.  I am staying at her house to
dog sit so I drove her to Tampa to the airport.  She was terrified to fly especially
after the Airline accident this week in San Francisco.  As I left her at the terminal
I prayed for a good flight.  I had not had breakfast or lunch so I decided to stop
on my way home at Cracker Barrel.  This is always a fun place to stop and the
food is so good.  I already missed her as I sat and had lunch by myself.  One of
the reasons I started this blog was to try to deal with being by myself and how
lonely it can be.  I was married for 30 years and last year my husband and I
separated.  There were many reasons, it probably should have happened a long
time ago but that doesn't make it any easier.  I moved to Northern Florida to a
small town, actually I'm in the country about 20 miles from the nearest small
town.  It was quite an adjustment from Naples, FL where I had lived for 24 years.
I'm sure anyone reading my daily blogs will find them quite boring, but this is
therapy for me.  I had found myself in a deep depression, one where I didn't
even want to get out of bed or leave the house.  Things got a little better when
I came to visit my daughter as she gets me out of the house and makes me
do things with her.  I decided to start blogging or journaling with a goal of
doing at least one thing each day that will get me up and out of the house and
get my mind off the past and onto what I hope will be a happier future.
As I was walking the dog this evening, I noticed what a beautiful evening it was.
I have not done that in a very long time.  This makes me think, maybe I am on
my way to happiness...

A DAY WITH MY DAUGHTER....

Monday,  July 8, 2013

Today I spent time with my daughter.  She is getting ready head to Seattle for two
weeks to visit her boyfriend.  It is a real life "Sleepless in Seattle" story.  They
met in the Airport while she was in Las Vegas for the PBR Finals and he was
in town celebrating his 40th Birthday.  That was almost two years ago.  She is
excited and yet nervous about going as she is terrified to fly.  While on a flight
home from New York years ago the plane hit turbulence and dropped quickly
scaring her to death and causing my world wide traveler to not travel so much.
When she met Greg and had to start making the 8 hour flights from Florida I
thought she might get over her fear of flying but she still gets  nervous before
every flight.  I did not help yesterday I ran into the drug store to get a newspaper,
I only check the ad section and coupons to be sure they are there.  I jumped
into the car, handed her the paper and she said "really mom, your showing me
this two days before I leave".  We had been busy and had not been watching
the news and plastered all over the front page was the recent Airplane Accident
in San Francisco.  We sat down tonight to watch the ABC Evening News and the
entire episode was on the plane crash and how to survive a crash.  She kept trying
to change the channel and the remote would not work.  I think she is terrified
but we all do crazy things for love and I know she will get on that plane tomorrow.

I will miss her but I pray she has a wonderful time, she deserves it.  She is such
a wonderful daughter, when times get rough she keeps me going.  So I'm asking
everyone to pray for a smooth, non-eventful flight for her to Seattle.

A QUIET DAY...

Sunday,   July 7, 2013

Today has been a quiet day.  I slept in, watched some TV.  My daughter has
a birthday party to attend tonight for a friends son who is going into
5th grade.  She was unsure of what to get a boy this age and asked me to
go with her to pick out a gift.  I thought of my own son and how at that
age he loved model cars, planes and rockets.  After visiting the craft store
my daughter was not sure that Jonathon's mother would appreciate us
"gifting" a rocket to her son.  We decided to go to Target and give that
a whirl.  Children today do not "play" like they did when I grew up or even
when my children grew up.  Computers, cell phones and video games have
taken over.  We searched and searched and ended up with a really cool
"spy kit".  It has a passport and plastic ID cards, it does require the computer
but like I said it was cool.  We then added two cans of silly string so that
Ava, his little sister and Jonathan can drive their mom crazy.  We then
picked the card game, "Blink" so the whole family can enjoy.  They are
a wonderful family and game night is part of their life.  We hope he enjoys
it.

I truly miss the days when my children were that young.  They pass so
quickly.  I know that mother's and father's these days are so busy with
work, home and kids but don't wish a single day away.  I remember saying
"I can't wait till, they sleep through the night or they walk or they talk
or their in school.  They are now 29 and almost 28 and I would give
a million dollars to have one of those days back.....

Enjoy your family and have a good night...

A DAY AT THE MOVIES..

Saturday,  July 6, 2013

Today is only my second day of working on my blog.  I actually
found myself quite excited today as I planned what I would do
today that would add a little happiness to my life and help me
escape this hole I'm in they call depression.  Life has certainly
threw me a curve ball and as I try to adjust to my new life it has
not been easy.  Again this is why I decided to start the blog.  I
feel like writing is a great release.  I do not want this blog to be
a list of my problems, I listed my situation in the "Profile" section
of my blog and that is where the problems are going to stay.  So on
to the adventure of my day! 

I am visiting my daughter, Nicole.  I plan to stay to be the official
dog sitter of  "Remington",  as I call my Grand-dog since I have
not been blessed with grandchildren as of yet.  My daughter is
flying to Seattle on Tuesday for two weeks of well deserved vacation.
She teaches Kindergarten and just finished teaching summer school.
She is ready for a break.  For my adventure today we decided to
go to the movies.  A dear friend of hers had given her free movie
passes and we decided to take advantage of them.  There are so many
new movies out right now but we decided to go see "White House
Down".  We had a great time.  The movie keeps you on the edge of
your seat but still has moments of light humor in it as to not get too
deep.  We were not the only one's who seemed to enjoy it as people
actually clapped throughout the movie.  If you haven't seen this
I would highly recommend it.  For me this was a great way to get
my mind off my problems and just relax and have some fun.

If you have seen this movie, I'd love to hear your comments on it...

My First Post....

Friday,  July 5, 2013

This is my first post for my blog, "Baby Steps to Happiness".
If you have read my profile you will see that I have suffered
a loss and am trying to recover.  I felt the best way to do this
is to start writing and I felt the best way to be sure that I
would do this on a daily basis is to start a blog.   Now I am
a 51 year old woman who just purchased her first computer
about 2 weeks ago, so bear with me.  My goal for the blog
is to do a little something each day different than I did it the
day before.  I am hoping that by adding new things to my
life I can erase some of the sadness and loss that I have been
feeling thus replacing with new and exciting adventures,
no matter how small they might be.  So today my new
adventure is this, my blog.